If we are honest with ourselves, we have all been through some kind of hardship in our lives. Even if this was only during a world wide pandemic. While I would like to tell you that this was the only difficulty that I have faced in my life that would be a complete lie. In fact, I would like to take this time to really open up to you all. To be honest, I have gone through some pretty dark times. One of the worst of these involved being attacked in college and to this day I often blame myself because I let myself get out of control, smoking weed and drinking, after a terrible break up that left me feeling like I had lost a part of myself. After this, all I wanted to do was give up on life and I almost did. That is until God stepped in and gave me a glimmer of hope. In fact, thinking about this the love of His son Jesus Christ has always stepped in every time that I needed this. Even after the loss of a dear friend of mine from high school who was killed shortly after this.
Today, I am dealing with being in a holding pattern awaiting two promises that He has given me. One being over a year ago. Much like Abraham, who was told that he would be a “Father of Many Nations” (Genesis 17:5), had to wait for His God given promise I am trying to do the same. Despite my doubts over the last couple of weeks, He has once again returned with little glimmers of hope and joy and I am, once again, filled with hope.
So, if you are going through a trial right now and are awaiting the answer to a promise remember…
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him. (James 1:12)
